又一个城市

顺着链怎么的找着一个博，博主是个刚来这的女生。看着她写自己的异乡记事，那么多自己去过的地方，经历的情景，这个春节的游行，查令街边的韩国饭馆，错过的马戏表演，砖巷的杂货市场，V&A里的大吊灯，她记得很杂很细，照片多的打不开。她的心情想必和我当初都是一样，总是他乡异客，随处走走都揣着相机，做足24小时游客。记得家里人跟我说，我应该也写写博客，把这边的生活记录下来，记得当时这个博已经开了一小段时间，结果好像完全不符合要求。我也经常开心地想，发照片吧，可结果很多事情都没有照片。这个博写得有点太随便。大概2，3年前开始，偶尔想想自己的生活状态，会突然恍然大悟，之后又想不明白，从什么时候开始自己已经在老老实实地过着日常生活，自然得自己都不觉得了呢。其实真应该感激当年的一念之差，把一年延长至今，才真正活起这个半球的日子来，尽管有很多东西是要无声忍耐，但总算有当下的感觉。不过失去了向这个女生一样的心情，其实也有点怅怅然，也许令身边的景致错过很多吧。一直以为这段生活不是真正的我的生活，早晚有一天我会回到我正常的生活中去，这一段我会义无反顾地抛在脑后。然而最近当要面对很多选择的时候，当我突然意识到对这个城市我有多少留恋，那一瞬间的感受差点把我惊倒。这个地方给我了我有点说不清的一个我，没有任何额外价值，我不重不轻，不穷不富，不老也不年轻，但是好像更积极，更自然。如果真的要离开，我最想带走什么？好像什么也带不走，除了自己，倒也轻便。曾经试过去一个地方不带相机只带眼睛，果然印象持久。如果除了旅行，又生活在那里，离开后5年10年，这个城市是什么印象呢。

叹息啊

今天无聊的结果。很少化妆留个念吧。看着自己可怜的皮肤，只能靠修的了。可现实里哪有修的一说呢。从小到大一直没有想过去拍写真啦什么的，可最近突然一直在想。人还是应该珍惜自己的青春，转瞬即逝的时候，抓住几个瞬间吧，因为一去不复返了。

07年3月3，元宵，傍晚月亮像锅盖一样大。此时此刻，月全蚀。是为记。

外星遭遇事件

昨天的梦in一段conversation

j: what r u doing
m: err nothing, i have a headache at the moment
m: because of the weather probably
j: oh, i c. it was so good, then i had a sleep. when i woke up, it s all dark
j: i had a really twisted experience this afternoon
m: haha, you've been asleep all afternoon!?
j: yeah, i know, it s really weird. i didnt feel it s that long
j: i was reading about alice and wonderland. then i felt asleep, then i had a dream, about aliens, then i had another dream in the dream
m: hahaha, wow that's weird
j: i know
m: maybe you're turning into alice!
j: haha, in my dream, i was in a spaceship with an alien, we look at each other saying nothing. that moment was quite peaceful but also quite awkward. like a dream i dreamed out while i was sleeping.
m: seen any white rabbits lately?
j: seen so many in the films and books
j: then i had a time travel back to when i havent been in the spaceship, just like i wake up. it s at a place surposed to be my home, with my mum. but i cant remember whether she is really my mum or someone acting as my mum, but i called her mum naturally. the surrounding seems like in somewhere in the states, at a clean summer night. the beams coming out of neighbourhood are shinning on the surface of the leaves, out side my window. i come back home and want to watch a comedy similar as Napoleon Dynamite with 2 funny aliens. then all the electricity s suddenly gone. i want to go to the lounge to watch tv there, and ask my mum to lighten the candles. but my mum denied it and seems about to say something to me but didn't say a thing. following her sight, then i see 2 aliens sitting on the sofa in the lounch, turning their heads towards me. i was a little scaried, but at the same time, there is something quite comic in the air. the aliens have interesting lookings, which i can't recall. but one of them might have a long neck and big eyes. then there is another weird looking man starts banging on the door. he has alot of cloth/a long scarf covering his face, only showing one eye. he is an alien too.
m: hahaha, that sounds crazy
m: all this reading and watching stuff gives you good imagination
j: i know, then i had a feeling we called "ghost sitting on ur chest"
m: ahh
m: were the aliens nice or evil?
j: they look quick freaky, with alots of clothes on. but they are rather funny
j: i cant remember the looks
m: i wonder if it is possible to draw the stuff that you see in dreams. you need a really good memory
m: dreams are forgotten easily..for me anyway
j: it was too long since i dreamed, coz i wouldnt be able to get up when i got a fresh memory
j: it s really hard. so i want to tell the dream before i completely forget it, lol
m: haha, you should write them down
j: i kept wondering maybe i was captured by the aliens while i was sleeping and put me back again. whoever knows what change they made on me
j: u r right. i ll write it down now
m: haha...maybe they made you a dissertation genius!
j: i will beg them to do so
m: then you can write my one too
m: if only!